Morbid Thoughts on a Wednesday Morning

My mind is too busy to let me sleep at the moment. Technically it is Wednesday morning here. Like anyone else whose mind is too busy to sleep, my thoughts have taken a slightly morbid turn. Clearly current family circumstances have etched themselves on my brain.

Everybody dies. Is that an excessively morbid thought or just an unwelcome dash of realism? My grandparents, 3 of them, are still alive and kicking in their 90’s. Well, not so much kicking at this stage, more like shuffling around with walkers. Not everyone is blessed with the same longevity. My youngest brother may not be one of the ‘long lived’ ones (many are praying otherwise so who knows what miracles might come). I am hoping that I and my own little family will live to a very ripe, smelly, old age.

Yet in the end, no one lives forever. Is it better to live with death in mind (especially when it may be staring you in the face) or to focus on living life? I think I’d prefer to focus on life. I’ll deal with death when I must and not before then. Perhaps that’s not so morbid after all.

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About dirtyrottenparenting

I'm a parent of two lovely (most of the time) children. I work full time out of the home and I don't cook well, bake, sew, or do crafty things. I keep my high heels and jewelry at my office because there's no point in having them at home. I love Mondays because I can return to the world of adults, go to the bathroom alone and have nearly uninterrupted conversations with others.
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6 Responses to Morbid Thoughts on a Wednesday Morning

  1. rachwiley says:

    The “everyone dies” realization has hit me hard recently too. I hope everything is okay.

  2. USA Kiwi says:

    I’m sorry. I’ve been there. Being the strong one is so hard. I hope that your brother comes through it, and goes on to live a long and happy life.

    If that doesn’t happen, please take time out for yourself, and let yourself “lose it” before you put yourself back together for everyone else. Not allowing yourself to feel the moment means you just prolong it, not block it (I should know – I lost my brother 3 years ago, and I’m still in the “pissed off about it” stage).

    My thoughts are with you and your family.

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